Today was an emotionally intense day. Woke up at 6.30 feeling all groggy and showered, packed and dragged myself to school. Got mocha frappucino (starbucks) from 7-11 just to wake myself up.
In school was stressed. Brought one whole truckload of clothes just to ensure I had a suitable outfit. Practiced and I wasn't satisfied.
You know what? Before I get to the really emo stuff, I shall pic-spam. I wrote a few paragraphs, started crying and yeahh.. I think having happy stuff after would be weirdddd.
I absolutely ADORE this pic
NISAAAAAAAA
I suddenly like muke cramp pics!
smile smile ahhh smile smile
FITTY!
=D
ALIAAAAAHHH!(:
THREE!
changeddd! me, hanan, yus, nurin, nisa and i see humaira! =D
Fit,Nisa,Sak(:
beremo against a wall (we were singing while emo-ing too)
Getting into character
and again
or maybe I just naturally look emo
Humaira muke cramp nampak??
I look weird but yeahh
MY MAT CAME TO WATCH!!!
yeayyy!
she's very nonsense
but i still love her (and she loves me =D don't deny ah shaf! LOL!)
I find this inspiring but emotional.
we wasted money drowning our sorrows in food at delifrance
hers. crossaint de tuna
butter and basket, devoured baguette
mine. steak de poulet
hers. forgot what its called.
mine. mousse de chocolat.
did you know?
chocolate is an anti-depressant
I say the $40.45 was worth it.
Now, emo.
Having someone who wouldn't tell me to shut up when I sing to calm myself down and actually sing along with me truly means alot. Really really. I'm gonna miss you Nisaaaaaaaaaaaaa): I'm gonna miss us randomly breaking into a random song. I'm gonna miss our screwed-up duets. I'm gonna miss your infectious laughter and the way you call me Kak Kinah. Thanks for being there for me, babe. Those memories are never to be forgotten. Getting home late to have dinner with you at Pasir Ris and spazzing in 7-11. Hanging out with you is always great. Really.
HUMAIRAAAAAAA!!! Thanks for being there with all your cute-ness and your 'kak sak.. muka cramp!! stopitseyy'. I never once took offence. Really! I'm gonna miss the way you say that actually): I'm gonna miss YOUR muker cramp and how you laugh at almost EVERYTHING and the way you overreact for alot of things, esp zak. You did great, babe. Really. Thanks(:
FITTYYYYYYYY!!! I'm gonna miss your frank-ness and your happy character! Everytime I see you, youre SMILING, don't you realise that? We have alot of memories together too. BEDOK LIBRARY!!! The ITE mats and the shhhhh-ing.And your listening to music SO SUPER LOUDLY until you dont realise you're talking too loud. SUPER CUTE OKAYY. I'm gonna miss hanging out with you la, really really.
NURIN! The best-est mentee! DONT emo-emo so much okayy. SMILEEEEE! I'll remember how we randomly eat prata before and after practice. Or when I threatened you with 10 karangans and you volunteered to do. You're a great character to be around, really really. I'm thankful to have you for my mentee and I hope that would just make the bond between the both of us closer(:
SHARIZAAAAH! Thanks for being there for me when I totally broke down like dunno what coz of my lines. You were really a great help. You're also a great actress and a TRUE inspiration! Not only can you act as a fabulous nenek, I'm sure you can take on many other roles as well(:
ALIAHHH! main jongkang-jongket yo! You were damn cute today can? And you were truly a great help that faithful day too. I think without you and Sharizah, I wouldn't have been so determined to say the lines in such a way.Or had to confidence to project my voice lower. Thanks for being there for me babe(:
HANAN! I don't care WHAT you say, Taufik's still mine LOL! HAHAH! And you were super dooooooper convincing okay! Prancing around with a teddy bear in pajama bottoms(: LA-LA-LOVED IT!!! (:
YUS! You're another talented actress. You were so full of emotions! And you're a really fun and enjoyable person to be around(: MAS SELAMAT! Hahaha! And many other random crappy things we talked about(:
ZAKIYYAH! You were a great director. Although we didn't win it, what matters most was the JOURNEY. I know it's hard for you to scold or reprimand us, but it's your job. I'm sure all of us understood you had to do what you had to do and we all understood. Thanks for putting everything in a nice way, and in such a way that I would want to IMPROVE and not just stand defeated. You fired up my spirits to perform better today. Thank you for everything you've done for the team(:
I'm sorry if my paragraphs were extremely short for you, especially for the sec 2s, but it's because we never had a proper chance to hang out and bond. My only regret is not getting to know you guys better because you girls are seriously a great bunch to be with, even knowing you on the surface, we could have so much fun together(:
Sorry I didn't hang out with you guys but yeah, I think if I hung out a little longer I would have really cried my eyes out. If you guys noticed, before we went in, I was being extremely emo. It's not only me getting into character, it's me reflecting about how much GPA meant to me this year.
For me, GPA '08 is the first time I'm acting. It's also the first time I bonded so closely with my juniors. However, despite that, it's my final time acting. It's also the final time I get to work with you guys. It's also the last major thing I do before I step down.
Yes, stepping down. No longer attending CCA. Sure, more time on my hands to study, but really, I'm going to miss you all like shit. And what's worse, I'm going to graduate soon to do self-study before O's. Then it's the actual O-level exam, after which results would be released and that's it, NO MORE CEDAR. NO MORE YOU GUYS. The thought of that really brings tears to my eyes. TO be brutally honest, tears flowed down writing this one blog entry, call me emo but it's the truth.
It's not just the end of GPA, it's the beginning of the end of my chapter in Cedar.
But to my lovely juniors, know that I'll still be here and contactable. Don't take this as goodbye, okay? Take this as the beginning of a lasting bond(:
I love you girls, really. And I mean it from the bottom of my heart(:
