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Sunday, January 13, 2008
apology
(10:58 PM)

I just feel like being jiwang tonight. Bear with me.

Hidupnya muram
Seperti tiadanya sinaran cahaya
Ku tidak mengerti
Apakah sebenarnya yang dihadapi dia

This empty feeling just lingers on
It wraps around me,
strangling me
Dragging, just dragging, on and on

Seorang gadis tanpa arah
Bingung, keliru
Ku memerhati setiap gerakannya
Dia semakin bigung, semakin terharu

I'm confused, I'm lost
I've lost my bearings, trapped with no direction
I'm terrified, I'm scared
There's no way now, I'm trapped

Ku menghampirinya
Ku mahu menghulurkan tanganku
Tiba-tiba, mukanya terpandang ke arahku
Ku terkejut.. dia adalah...

I hear footsteps
FINALLY! Someone to guide me
I turn my head to catch a glimpse
I gasped.. She was..

DIRIKU SENDIRI

MYSELF.

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I'm still in the process of finding myself, forgive me if I've done wrong. Give me room for mistakes, for I am still learning.

The heart overpowers the mind sometimes. I know, it's my mistake. I react too brashly.

I'm sorry if my words were too harsh, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it.

I'm sorry if I brought about doubts. I'm sorry if you think I'm too much. I'm sorry. I have my reasons.

To Insyi, friends DRIFT. We are different okay. DIFF-FE-RENT. Don't blame others. I have my own reason. Put the blame on me for all you want I don't mind. We had fun in the past, yeah. You were there for me, yeah. I thank you for all that. But realise that nothing lasts forever. There are certain friendships that are just made for a period of time, and that's that. There are certain things that make me real uneasy, that's all you need to know. Seriously.

To Nashiran, sorry. I know I was harsh, but it's all because I cared, okay. I treasure our friendship and it means alot to me that I can trust you and you can trust me. I didn't want to ruin that. Because we have really come a long way, if you get what I mean. I know it was hard at the beginning but I can see you for who you're worth, you're a really special person, please remember that. And I hope one day, you'll see I'm really sincere and I'm not out to just cheat your feelings.

Humans are just complicated sometimes. I don't even understand myself right now.

 help me get over you
(9:16 PM)

Okay so today hung with Val and Zoe and did my bloody malay homework. Hanging out with the 2 of them is ABSOLUTELY fun okay(: Talk about solid primary school friendships!

OYYY MEET IN SAJC NEXT YEAR! SET?

After we finished up at geylang east macs, Zoe and I headed off to Singpost by foot. I wanted a haircut oh-so randomly. HAHAHA.

My hair is shorter but I like it! Short and sassy =) AND most of the rebonded parts are FINALLY OFF! YESSAH!

Got home and well; conflict of the day was certain trust issues with a certain friend of mine.

PART REMOVED.

basically coz im damn confused right now and my mind is in a blur. you know how much i hate myself sometimes?