so the "I am gifted, so are you" course has FINALLY ended. All I have to say is WOAH.

Those 39 hours were the best 39 hours spent in my life, really. I was afraid it would turn out to be oober boring and totally pointless but WOAH BOY was I wrong.

Gary, Leroy and Gerald are 3 people who have really seriously made an impact in my life. Seriously. I thought that whatever they teach would not really impact me and that my grades will ultimately remain the SAME.

I DOUBTED MYSELF. The most horrible mistake in my life. Actually, I CAN DO IT. Like seriously. I'm a smart kid, no doubt about that but all this time I shortchanged myself. Like really really. I can do better. I DESERVE better.

In fact, we had an exercise about exercising our determination just now. What we had to do was write our aim for O's and our ambition and then, write our weaknesses. What's stopping us from getting there. Then we had to get someone to EMPHASISE on our weaknesses and try to convince us we couldn't do it. Trying to demoralise us, crush our dreams, just to see if we had the fire, the PASSION to pursue our dreams.

Gerri and I got trainers to do it for us. Gerri got Gerald and I got some random dude, I regret not catching his name. I owe him alot. He SHOUTED at me okay. He tried his best. He made me feel the fire building up, the passion spilling out. I SCREAMED back at him. I guess while screaming I convinced myself too. Thank you unnamed dude. I am forever grateful.

At the closing ceremony, I gathered the courage to apologise to my parents. And tell them how much I appreciated them coming TOGETHER. Sure, broke down like shizitttt but yeah. Mummy said papa cried. And the family had a nice dinner together at KFC. I missed those times okay, I really did. And to have that happen for just one more time was truly magical for me, no kidding.

But I gotta focus on right here right now. Past does not affect future. Present affects future, though.

SAKSAKOYYY! Make your own decisions. Live for today, babe. It's as good as living for the future =)