the temporary blog

all eyes on me, in the center of the ring, just like a circus

2009-05-17T18:28:00.002+08:00

The urge to blog comes and goes.

So i got selected for the NGLP. That means sacrifices are in order. No SMUN for me then... That's coz my camp totally clashes with it. Oh well. I'll be around for TMUN totally then, I guess.

I just have to say... Life's a balancing act. I know I will not be handed anything I can't handle. He knows better than to give me something I can't take. I may not know it, but He knows my true potential and He is in the position to show me exactly what I'm capable of, that I'll soon discover.

Oh and I'm totally in love with TJC :)

close to 4 months with my kitty. it's never been better.

I've got insommniaaa woooaaahhh~

2009-03-24T19:11:00.003+08:00

Suddenly had the urge to blog today so here goes..

Life in TJ has been great so far I guess. I get to stay with old friends whom I'm comfortable with and I've found many more new friends that I click with super fast. I also feel that I've more opportunities to pursue my interests here, actually. With CWJC and GDRC as well as other opportunities that randomly present itself right in front of my eyes. It's a matter of whether or not I step up to the plate and take them on.

Academics-wise.. I can't really comment. I've been slacking the entire term one so, it holds true that you reap what you sow. I got a 7 out of 25 for math? Like schwaaa? But yeah.. I really didn't understand.. I did get 6 out of 25 for lit tho. Considering I have no grounding in lit, a 6 in TJ is quite okay. Our standards are just high for some reason and I did get positive comments so I'm relatively happy. I just have to work for it :) For economics though, I scored a 9 out of 15! I'm relatively happy coz it's the only pass I managed to get SO FAR. Can't wait to get my HISTORY test back! Anticipating rather good results for that even though I did not revise. HEEHEE. Sec 4 work so yeeeah.

Other than school, life has been rather kind to me, I think. Tomorrow marks the second month of a turning point in one aspect of my life. Doesn't feel that long though! Maybe coz it sunk in only recently, but oh well! That's a good sign, I believe :)

I think my attitude towards many things has changed drastically, actually. I want to get the most out of my life, no matter which aspect. I mean, humans have many dimensions to them, right? I don't want to just.. slack off and have no meaning in life. I mean, obviously studies are not everything. I don't wanna be someone who could only do well academically either. I want to be someone with an active social life, good track record in school, score relatively well and a good daughter/granddaughter/sister/whatever.

I know I've neglected some of my responsibilities and roles the past few years but I'm trying to make up for it starting from this year. Maybe I'm just maturing, but I've developed a new-found respect towards most people in my life.. New-found guilt of disappointing them time and again. New-found vigour of living up to their expectations, to be all that I can be...

Guess that would keep me busy for quite some time. Time-management has to come in pretty soon. Can't really play by ear like what I'm doing now. I'll do my best and see where it gets me :)

After Sappho- Lee Ann Brown

2009-03-15T20:25:00.001+08:00

So many people
advised me against you.
How glad I am
we could not resist.

the feelings she hides

2009-02-22T19:17:00.002+08:00

I think I just went on an impromptu blogging hiatus?

I don't know, it's like, there's this line that separates what can be blogged and what can't be blogged. Some people just air their dirty laundry online for all to see but I don't wanna do that!

K so been sick for quite some time. ONE SOLID WEEK. Can you believe that? GOSH. Back to school tomorrowwww!!! I should probably attempt to do my history tut soon. But I'm still sick and there's no hist tut tomorrow. We shall see then :D

one step at a time

2009-01-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

So yeappp. That explains alot. Got it at 6.15. WOWWW. HAHAH.

Sent Faith off :( :( :(

Then headed to TJC with my schoolmates(read: TJCians!), Iman and Prisia. I felt DAMN good looking at the building can? :) I know I'll love my 2 years there. Then bussed down to Bedok and trained down to City Hall where I got my FBTs! :D

Then trained home, ate and rested and trained down to vivo! Got mummy's present then walked around and headed home at 5plus with shaffffff :D

Basically yeah, that's it. Main event: the sms. Heh.

Together we'll be running somewhere new, through the monsoon :)

2009-01-27T14:18:00.004+08:00

So its chinese new year,.

How did I spend the holidays? At home, of course. I mean, not as though there's any difference to these past 2 days, I've been rotting at home like what the bleah for a few months! I did do some shopping though. Online! Bought 2 tops that I really liked online :D Or ordered, at least. One top was $10 and the other was $17.50. yupp. The latter is not instock so I have to wait. Ohwells.

Something else that I've been up to was actually attempt to finish up cleaning my room! Okay, the chinese may say it's inauspicious but I'll take my chances, aite :P I have my reasons for wanting to get all the cleaning done ASAP so yeappp :) Clean I shall!

School posting results will be out on friday, 8am. I'll probably be at the airport sending Faith off. I'MMA MISS FAITH :( But ah well, there's still MSN and faceboooook. FAITH NO LOVE ME THAT'S WHY SHE GO AWAY. LOL.

As can be seen, the holidays have clearly taken a toll on my writing skills. Ah well. Only a few days till the start of school.

Now back to watching Chandramukhi :D

where did i go right

2009-01-25T17:58:00.002+08:00

Like woah. This blog has been SERIOUSLY neglected.

Guess there has been like, quite a number of things going on in my life that I just couldn't even think of blogging. OH WELLS.

Anyway, school posting results will be out this friday. I REALLY HOPE I get into my first choice can? SIGH. But Meridian's okay... I think.. I dunno..... -shrugs-

Oh and.. today's a rather significant day. WHY? Hmmm.. If you know me, you'll know. I won't really reveal anything on my blog :P

bounce bounce baby

2009-01-12T16:22:00.004+08:00

ONLY in cedar can you get my result and hate yourself.

EL-A1
Hist-A2
SS/geog-A2
E Math-B3
A Math-B4
Science-A1
HML-A2
Malay-A1

L1R4-7
L1R5-10
after bonus-7.

bleah. so here are my school choices. Don't bother asking me again.

Choice of Courses

Exam Sitting(s): 2008/2007

1 -	32A TEMASEK JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (TEMASEK JUNIOR COLLEGE)	7 -	NIL
2 -	36A MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (MERIDIAN JUNIOR COLLEGE)	8 -	NIL
3 -	26A NANYANG JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (NANYANG JUNIOR COLLEGE)	9 -	NIL
4 -	31A TAMPINES JUNIOR COLLEGE (ARTS) (TAMPINES JUNIOR COLLEGE)	10 -	NIL
5 -	S86 MEDIA AND COMMUNICATION (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)	11 -	NIL
6 -	S43 APPLIED DRAMA AND PSYCHOLOGY (SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC)	12 -	NIL

when you use your lips they better be on me

2008-12-29T20:40:00.004+08:00

1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
hmm. study? hahah. oh and attend a public lecture WILLINGLY.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions and will you make more for next year?
no. i think. i wasnt motivated throughout. and im still gullible ><
for next year i shall be tidier. and finish all assignments!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Noooooo. hope not anytime soon><

5. What countries did you visit?
indonesia

6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
super flat tummy :D

7. What exact date(s) from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
what about 11th nov 2008? LAST PAPER BABES :D oh 4th oct 08. official graduation :(

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
so.much.mugging! and i guess i sucked up most of whatever got me down in '07. and wow. i graduated from secondary school. i'm still in disbelief, actually.

9. What was your biggest failure?
being slack. giving up on a math

10. Did you suffer any illness or injury?
no major ones, thankfully

11. What was the best thing you bought?
my set of drawers from ikea! :D

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
all my friends and family. for being there for me thru all the ups and downs :D

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
My own? not really. just... sad. and others. kinda too private.

14. Where did most of your money go?
i can safely say... FOOD.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
end of o levels. euro! museum-hopping in jakarta!

16. What song will always remind you of 2008?
low-flo rida, when i grow up- pussycat dolls

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
happier :D
ii. thinner or fatter?
lighter and taller so thinner?
iii. richer or poorer?
er... both? i spend too much

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
studying. and spending time with fam? volunteering?

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
texting, spending time online?

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
its overrrrrr. and i dont celebrate anyway.

22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
er.. not in love, i would say. it's just... liking.

23. How many one-night stands?
none. at all 2

24. What was your favorite TV program?
first class! now no more.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
nope :D

26. What was the best book you read?
i really didn't read much. the last lecture, perhaps?

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
the cab! :D nightwish? you, me and everyone we know is not bad either. and the older stuff of bands like AFI and muse and lost prophets. 2008 wasnt a real music discovery year, yeah?

28. What did you want and get?
LAPTOP! CAMERA! NEW PHONE! :D

29. What did you get and not want?
responsibilities?

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
twilight? hmm..

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
16. day before: craziness with val and zoe at kbox followed by trip to istana with the parents. day itself: flooded with lurrrrveee by the wonderful people in school, at home and everywhere else (by sms)

from my juniors :D so impromptu!

with parents at istana

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
irdk. i think the year couldn't have gone better given the situation..

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
jeans and whatever. hahah. trying to steer away from JUST tees. oh and doing random stuff with hair.

34. What kept you sane?
goofing around and not studying :D

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
fancy? as in like? hmmmm. TAUFIK? lol.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
OBAMA! :D

37. Who did you miss?
nobody, at the moment.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
hmmmmm. -thinks- got quite a few people leh. juniors, random people off the street, random people random people i know know, random people off the net. so i cant answer?

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
(i shall say a few)
You reap what you sow
Family is always there
CHOOSE your friends carefully; they impact who you are
don't give up on yourself, that's when the world gives up on you.

besties <33

all behind me

brother dearest <33

ties that bond <3

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
(i shall pick out a whole bunch. actually the whole song kinda sums it up. the middle by jimmy eat world btw :D)
Hey, don't write yourself off yet
It's only in your head you feel left out
Or looked down on
Just try your best, try everything you can
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

It just takes some time, little girl in the middle of the ride (over, and over)
Everything, everything will be just fine (over, and over) Everything, everything it'll be alright (alright)

the fake sound of progress

2008-12-28T16:38:00.003+08:00

so like, right now, i'm cleaning my room like FUR REAL. As in, really getting rid of tons of books I had since god-knows-when and I even dragged the dad to buy stuff like a rack of shelves ($69 for the frame and the drawers! 6 drawers :D) and this cool-looking dustbin and im gonna reorganise the wardrobe.

Well, this is somehow in anticipation of NEXT YEAR. I mean like once I hit JC, I'm no longer considered some little kid, right? The awkward pre-teen stage is officially OVER and I'm going to hit adulthood soon so I have to start acting more like it. No more clothes strewn everywhere and papers all askew. I need to know where everything is, right down to the last shred of notes. And jc will most definitely need more travelling time (no straight bus to ANY of my choices) so no time to waste looking for my wallet everyday. gotta know exactly where i put it. (phone's no problem. always by my side)

ah well. better clear as much as i can today. tho i'm STILL SICK. omg. ><>< I'd rather watch 'thank you' :(

your way with words is through

2008-12-28T06:47:00.002+08:00

wow. talk about a dead blog.

guess i've just been too caught up in what happens daily that i really couldn't bother keeping track? been out like every weekday and weekends are like, superchill so like yeah. here I am at 6.48 am blogging because I went to bed at 11 on account of being sick, got woken up by a terrible nightmare (o level results, 12 points?!?!?) at 5 and tossed and turned and can't get back to sleep.

so.. the holiday was... quite a holiday, i must say. night drive on the first day, museum-hopping on day 2, taman mini+some museums on day 3, shopping day4 and batik factory+home on day 5. days 1,4 and 5 were spent with my dad's friend in jakarta and days 2 and 3 were private tours (:D)

and since i got back, i went out.. 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th 26th. Told you i'm out every weekday!

22nd... ICA and suntec.

23rd.. far east and dhoby

24th.. cousin's place

25th... lunch with fam at breeks

26th... kids kampong with some classmates

Saturday was spent sniffling away in front of the tv and blowing my nose every so often. Nope, not because I was crying while watching the korean drama shaf lent me, titled 'thank you', but becuase I had a case of the flu. About time eh? Since the whole world seemed to be falling sick anyway. Supposed to have gone to ikea yesterday to hunt for more storage space for my room but yeah.. was sick.. still am though so idk if dad's still gonna bring me to ikea. hmm.

might as well try to get back to sleep now i guess. its nearing 7 ><

light on

2008-12-24T01:33:00.003+08:00

k since im so bored and i just came across this... i shall open up itunes and do it

post note- DAMN. it keeps picking the same bands.. -_-

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense.
No cheating!

How are you feeling today?
ur call- taufik( yeah, what do you think? :P)

Will you get far in life?
coma-muse (??)

How do your friends see you?
triple zero-afi (omgg i sure hope they dont ><)

Will you get married?
permanent- david cook (okay. yeay)

What is your best friend's theme song?
midnight sun-afi

What is the story of your life?
girl's not grey- afi (why all afi oneeee. and yeay im not grey)

What was high school like?
amity- lovehatehero

How can you get ahead in life?
episode 666 -in flames

What's the best thing about your friends?
low- flo rida (yeah, not that tall :P)

What's in store for this weekend?
transparent- in flames

Describe your grandparents.
weathered tome- afi

How's your life going?
ibu- taufik (mummyyyyy <3)

What song will they play at your funeral?
thoughts of a dying atheist- muse (whut? im not atheist)

How does the world see you?
fall children- afi

Will you have a happy life?
spiral static- muse (is that a no?)

Do people secretly lust after you?
dominion- scar symmetry (hmm. right to rule? whaa?)

How can you make yourself happy?
our infinite struggle- in flames (wow. i CANT??)

What should you do with your life?
underneath the surface- scar symmetry

What does your mum think of you?
at a glance- AFI (she know me at a glance mehhh... hahaha)

What is your deep, dark secret?
words within the margin- in flames

What is your mortal enemy's theme song?
lower it- afi

What's your personality like?
thunder- astroninja (NICEEEE)

What song will be played at your wedding?
everlost, part 1- in flames (i doubt death metal would go down nicely with the crowd ><)

can you feel your heartbeat racing?

2008-12-23T22:51:00.003+08:00

my personality test results.

http://www.ipersonic.com/type/SI.html

kinda eerily true at some points

The Spontaneous Idealist in love

When you are in love, you easily outperform all other personality types in terms of enthusiasm and panache. Then your commitment knows no limits. You go out of your way in your eagerness to express your affection, and in your happiness, you are ready to embrace the entire world. When watching your attempts to flirt, one can’t help but think about a puppy dancing happily around its new playmate. Then for you simply nothing exists but your newfound love. „Hold your horses!“ - “Discretion is the better part of valor!” - “All that glitters is not gold!” - these worldly wisdoms are nothing but a waste of time.

With the entire spontaneity of your personality type, you instinctively immerse yourself in your emotions because you are sure that this time you have found the perfect partner. And you want everything here and now. You can probably go through as many divorces and separations as you want, but you are never going to learn from experience and at the age of 70 - and with shining eyes - you are still ready to walk down the aisle. Your friends may sometimes have a problem watching this, but they can only shake their heads in exasperation, and hope and pray, because in those moments you won’t accept advice from anyone. Then it would be easier to get in the way of a Tsunami.

In a long-term partnership you are a charming, affectionate, and unconventional partner, always good for a surprise, always there if you are needed, always ready for a loving compliment. As generous as you are with your feelings, so do you love to spend money and lavish your partner with gifts - sometimes even causing the very security minded and conservative types in the relationship to get a little weak in the knees. Should they now be happy that you abducted them to a luxury hotel for a romantic weekend, or should they be concerned whether there will be a problem when the next rent payment becomes due? Everyday things only interest you peripherally anyway; sometimes you walk with a downright childish confidence through life believing that the universe, fate or some other supreme powers are going to make sure that at the end everything will work out. So, why worry and save? It is interesting that this sometimes even works!

The Spontaneous Idealist at work

As a Spontaneous Idealist you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a colorfully diverse group of people who interest and inspire you. Working in a “secluded room” is not your thing. Your sense for the motivation of others is almost eerie. You constantly observe that which happens around you and have no problems noticing all sorts of things simultaneously or communicating with several people at the same time.

Your enthusiasm is contagious to others and that is why your colleagues and friends all appreciate you as an important member of your team. Your articulateness and your sensitive ear for nuances in conversations with others obviously play a role. For you, this team-oriented environment is very important because you need to receive positive feedback and recognition like other people need air to breathe. It would be practically impossible for you to contribute everything you need to maintain your high ideals, by yourself.

Variety, challenges and fun are important ingredients of your area of responsibility. You appreciate receiving new stimulation, meeting new people, and continuously collecting unique experiences. However, too much routine, too much detail work and the necessity to stick with one project for a very long time is not your thing. Your strength are creative problem solutions, discovering new ways and opportunities, the conceptualization of new ideas on one hand, but not so much their concrete implementation on the other. Ideally, you have a staff of capable colleagues that takes over your concepts and runs with them.

nothing you can say, nothing you can do

2008-12-14T15:39:00.002+08:00

Rules:
* Grab the book nearest you. Right now.
* Turn to page 57.
* Find the fifth sentence.
* Post that sentence along with these instructions in your blog

My book:

"Vladimir Lenin was the man who started Communism in Russia"-Crisis and Conflict (my hist text)

I'm in love with a zombie

2008-12-11T19:43:00.003+08:00

SEVERE LACK OF UPDATES.

anyway, yesterday was farewell. pictures are all up on facebook. I would just like to say THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY THE MUCH once again to the juniors :D

So just now went to watch 'The Day the Earth Stood Still' with YuQi and ShiEn :D It was nice actually.. Oh and before that, met DON aka Udon Juan of Astroninja at Somerset MRT :D

YuQi and ShiEn thought he was a personal friend so they were frickin blur when i asked them to help me take pic. They have never heard of Astroninja like what the ?

And YUPPP here's the CD! size of my bag. inside there's the actual CD, bobby the sheep button (YEAYYY), 'YES I AM A NINJA' card, and stickers! The cd has a handwritten note on it. SO NICEEE :D

Going shoe-shopping tomorrow with ShiEn. Quite a chilled outing in the sense that we haven't, and will not, set a time to meet. We'll just be going with the flow. After all, we do live a stone's throw away from each other, so why bother? :P

'cause this time it's real

2008-12-04T18:04:00.002+08:00

Right side of the neck spasming randomly... HMMM. Guess it's all side effects of the op that went on 2 years ago. Ah whatever. Didn't get bitten :P

So went out with the horror movie junkies. YUQI AND SHIEN! hahah. Watched QUARANTINE at cineleisure. and omgomg GUESS WHAT? I STROLLED IN WITHOUT GETTING CHECKED. Okay. Good news/ bad news moment. Good news, I don't look like a kid. Bad news, I LOOK OLD. daymn.

And omg I'm hooked on WESTLIFE.

you're all kinds of beautiful

2008-12-02T07:42:00.003+08:00

Sunrise pictures.

then i realised i was an idiot and could actually adjust exposure

photography attempt= PHAIL.

but i've got better things to do than watch you walk all over me

2008-11-29T22:50:00.004+08:00

So this blog is superduper dead. I guess I just lost the fervour to type out whatever's in my head into this blog.

Been rather busy lately like wow. The whole holidays have been rather eventful for me. Been out almost everyday, actually. And I've been horrendously nocturnal, something that I absolutely have to remedy soon. To tell you the truth, I miss watching the sunrise every morning. ~~To tell you the truth, I miss starshine too, but there's nothing I can do about THAT.~~

so my mind's officially a whirlpool but I'm not that shallow. My life does not revolve around guys and they, alone, can't bog me down. OH WELL. The next time I blog, I'm gonna put up pics of a beautiful sunrise. Mark my words.

yesterday I wanted time to end

2008-11-19T00:13:00.004+08:00

As I walked the long, familiar path, I can't help but take in all the sights.

The old playground, where there used to be many laughing children, including me at one point of time, running about gayly without a care in the world, now devoid of human life. The old, rusty steps to the slide looked very different, and at the same time vaguely familiar. How odd it looks without little children sitting on it or climbing up eagerly to go down the slide.

I then walked through the void deck adjacent to the playground. A cold breeze brushed past me as I glanced at the pillars. The very pillars I used to run around while playing catching with my friends all look so weathered and uncared for. The paint was all peeling off and cracks were clearly visible. I sighed knowingly. I understood that soon, this building would be gone and there was no use at all repainting the pillars or mending the cracks.

I got into the dark elevator and pressed the button with the number '11' on it. I sighed and leaned my head back as the whirring of the elevator distracted me from my thoughts. This is the only place I know that still has such noisy elevators. As weird as it may sound, I then realised how much I actually missed that noise.

The elevator door opened with a loud, clanging noise. I exited and walked the all-too familiar corridor. I glanced over to my right, beyond the highway, where a rejected old building stood. Clothes of construction workers hung out of the windows and it just pained me to see that. You see, that old building was the place I began my primary school education. I remember the splendid garden with frangipani trees and numerous benches where I would sit with my friends and talk during recess. I remember the field, where we used to catch grasshoppers and the gigantic tree whose roots were used as makeshift balancing beams. I also fondly remember the big drain where we used to catch tadpoles. Sadly, all those features that I have grown to love are long gone. What I see now is just a pathetic building next to level ground. An area that shows no sign of ever being a warm environment for little children to grow up in.

The corridor seemed awfully quiet. Usually there would be the loud clatter of mahjong tiles coming from a certain unit. Upon closer inspection, the unit was vacant, as are the other units at that level and the one above. When I got to the 13th storey, I finally saw signs of life, the multitude of shoes outside the unit to the left. I mustered a smile as I pressed the doorbell and waited for someone to welcome me in. A smiling face greeted me as I finally found some familiarity in the unit I grew up in. However, the unit looked fairly neglected. Anything that was broken were not mended. It was apparent why though, as my grandmother chatted animatedly about the new house. I sighed as I thought, my childhood is officially gone.

I think it's time to set it straight, I need to change the frequency

2008-11-15T19:50:00.003+08:00

Awoke at around 1030 thanks to my irritating phone alarm. I SO did NOT feel like getting out of the warm comforts of my bed with my toasty comforter but.. no choice. I KNEW I shouldn't have slept at 4.30am...

Showered, got dressed and stuff then went out and met zoe in the last carriage of the mrt when it stopped at Aljunied station sliiiightly after 12.

Zoe wanted to get clip-on extensions and when I recounted my own experiences with them, she decided to get permanent extensions. Sooo instead of alighting at Bugis, we got off at City Hall and took a train down to Orchard.

Went to Far East to get Zoe's highlights. I'm jealous ><
suits her hair.

then we trained to city hall and split up. zoe took the train to paya lebar and i just went out of the mrt station to meet Jaslin. Zomb-out baybeh!

walked around, ate, and waited for Jaslin's friend; Qian Hui :D

hehe. Qian Hui and I managed to climb up on the parapet. Jaslin couldn't. In the end we dragged her up :p

I decided to be the bag lady for the event! :D Check it

I so totally look cool.

And okay.. Due to the multitude of pics, I shan't post anythin else up. There are 2 facebook albums of pics so yeah :D

Now I just want you to fade out

2008-11-14T22:42:00.003+08:00

I don't like you, mr poopypants,
But serves me right, setting myself up.
Never again...never again....

I'm yours

2008-11-14T02:22:00.002+08:00

Outings with the gang never cease to amuse me.

So what if all we did was lunch, walk around and go to the arcade? We did have a lot of time to talk in between :D

These memories will never ever be replaced in my heart <3

*ahem* and for the record, ______ matches the description of tall, dark and handsome perfectly okeh? HAHAH :P

and damn. my blogging skills just went down the drain. I guess you just had to be there? Pictures are on facebook anyway.

Can't wait for next Friday! (:

feels like our last summer

2008-11-13T02:00:00.000+08:00

--——————-Girls————————
--————-are like apples———
--——-on trees. The best ones——-
--—-are at the top of the tree.——-
---The boys dont want to reach—-
--for the good ones because they—
-r afraid of falling and getting hurt.-
-Instead, they get the rotten apples-
from the ground that arent as good,
but easy. So the apples up top think
something wrong with them when in
-reality they’re amazing. They just—
---have to wait for the right boy to
---- come along, the one who’s-
--————- brave enough to——-
--——————-climb all————————-
--——————-the way——————-
--——————to the top————————--

Let me light up the sky, light it up for you :D

2008-11-09T17:32:00.008+08:00

First order of business;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XT3!!
lotsa lotsa love!<3 so like yeah... met ah-zoe at the singpost busstop so we can decide where to go from there. she saw me and SQUEALED. HAHA. No, not because she was THAT happy to see me but she saw what I got her. HEH.

my eyebags are horrible. my sleep cycle is thoroughly screwed :D

Then went to paya lebar control station and waited for val. She came then off we went to changi. Airport, that is.

Oh and like, Zoe opened the second gift, the one that's shared between Val and I.The thing stuck to the box!! Dang.

she obviously loves the thing

Went to breeks :D food was yummeh as usual.

my strawberry ice lemon tea!<3

my creamy mushroom pasta with shrimp thing! i think it tastes better than the version without the shrimp coz the taste of the shrimp compliments the cream sauce super well!! :D

val and zoe both got the (beef) lasagne.

After we were done and paid the bill, we had some feedback form? yeahh. Zoe filled it up.

I think it was the most annoying feedback form on the face of the earth.

concentrating...

and conspiring... tsk.

first draft

final. you can click to enlarge... come on.. you know you want to :P

then we wandered around.. left terminal 2 and took the skytrain to terminal 3! :D

T2 toilet :D *cough* I LOVE MY CAM *cough*

wheeee. we are little kids

teehee

TROLLEYSSS

Then went to the viewing gallery where I fixed the frame decor (or, more specifically, the words)

playing with the zoom function. I think its about 6x? yeeeeah

phoyoframe, AFTER fixing. the noob didnt get a full shot. HAHA.

OBAMA: "to those who seek peace and security, we support you"

2008-11-05T16:23:00.003+08:00

OH MY GOD.

OBAMA WON OBAMA WON OBAMA WON!!!!!!!!!!

GIVE IT UP FOR PRESIDENT OBAMA!!!

important changes WILL be put in place. changes that are better for the environment and for humanity(:

I'm happy. This victory has restored my faith in mankind once more.

it's been a long time

2008-11-04T20:41:00.004+08:00

6/1 gathering today!

Was rather fun :D

We met up at the main entrance at 130? yeahh.

Then we went to look for mdm koo at the staff room. Chatted for awhile. She tried to look at us and remember our names. Not bad ah. 4 years and she can still recognise some of us :D

Went in and had a real good laugh at how messy her desk was. DAMN no before pics. BUTTT we helped her clean it up :D

credits to the girls! but of course the guys were there to actually THROW the thrash away :P

And like.. Mdm Koo still had like our primary 6 stuff! LIKE OMG. LOOK

Yes, LAUGH at my handwriting :P

Pic with Mdm Koo and Ms Latha :D

So after cleaning up Mdm Koo's desk and chatting abit we walked around the school.

Took a picture outside the hall! :D

Yes, our primary school is waaaaaaay cooler than yours :P

Walked around more and we were shocked when we saw the school field.

It was BARREN when we left can? -_-

Then the whole bunch of us boarded 158 to kallang leisure park. Took super long to have our lunch then we went to the arcade! :D

I'm hooked on the drum thing like ZOMG. hahaha.

Aaaaand yeah. That was basically it? HTBT, i guess for all the jokes and nonsense.

OH YEAHHH. OTW back fifa and I got semi- lost. We wanted to take the shuttle bus back to kallang mrt but like... IT DIDNT GO THERE? So we ended up back at kallang leisure park.. so yeah.. I kinda almost missed my curfew. OHWELL. At least I called to say that I would be a tad late...

And fifa and I saw the sunset (:

lovely(:

closer shot.

I guess the cam was a good buy eh? :D WHOO! Can't wait for the next outing!! MDM KOO'S PLACE :D

everyone wants to feel like someone's there

2008-11-03T18:07:00.003+08:00

Hmm. Many things have come to light in the past few days..

I don't think I wanna bother mentioning them but what I shall bother mentioning is that my emo side SCARES THE CRAP outta me. SHIZZZ.

Ohwells. I'm happy with most other things, I guess. Shall not bother about certain things happening around me. I have my own room for a reason, you know(:

Oh, new camera. Canon powershot E1. <3

I'm all over, I'm not over you.

2008-11-02T22:56:00.002+08:00

so it has come to THAT stage again.

The whole 'i sing to distract myself' stage.

ah well. i got some nice recordings. did a cover of 'all over you' by the spill canvas. thought of covering 'monsoon' by tokio hotel but..... meh.

new facebook 'girlfriend'. jaslin tan ___ ___! HAHAHAHA.

ah yes, things we bored single people do sometimes. i think the only time i have a guys name in that particular part of my profile would be when i get attached for REAL. which would be in about 10 million years, i guess. that's a conservative estimate. okayyy. drama queen here, i know :D

ss tomorrow. i'm... excited actually. it's definitely easier than studying for hist so im chilleddd.

to justify the way you live a lie live a lie live a lie

2008-11-01T19:31:00.002+08:00

4 papers left.

I really should be concentrating all my energy onto these last few papers. If not for anything but to distract myself because, trust me, these papers are not as tough as the ones before.

In fact, I think I'm wasting my brain space on other things. Things I should not be thinking about in the first place. Things that have little or no impact on my life in the long run, on my career, on my academics.

I should learn to be more detached and self-absorbed. Heck, I need to learn from those hermits, study all day and forget the people around them. Well, I don't know. That's a little too extreme but yeah.

Long holidays are coming. Sure as hell I'm gonna enjoy it. No matter what, i swear nothing can get me down.

let it rock

2008-10-30T19:18:00.003+08:00

This is the last chance
to make your mark
History will know
who we are
This is the last game
So make it count

It’s Now or Never!

Okay. Ignore the high school musical 3 reference. I just feel like the song is thoroughly apt given the current situation I'm in right now. The O levels.

I know, 16 doesn't seem like an age whereby whatever results you get really impact your life, but there seems to be an air of finality lingering about. I mean, this is the end of my secondary school life. But on the flip side, it's the beginning of my JC education... Depends how you see it, really.

With 5 papers left, I'm already feeling rather happy. Okay fine, I haven't exactly been exerting myself to the maximum but I'm thoroughly exhausted. It's like, we have too many tests and exams in our final year. The effect of which just gets us so exhausted we just grow numb to the entire severity of the situation. Okay, maybe it's just me, but a few hours extra before papers do help, I guess. I hope..

Ah well. My post is really incoherent, that I'm aware.

In other news... I IS PANDA!!! :D I look like somebody boxed both my eyes. WHOOOO!!!!

yes, I know I'm retarded. YOU try staying up till 1 memorising names like tjipto mangunkusomo and whatnot.

2 more tough papers and that's it. SLACK. sigh...

as easy as 1,2, 1234

2008-10-17T17:31:00.003+08:00

If you married the person you last texted, what would your last name be?

; wow. marry my junior? :P

What did you do today?

; studied. hung out.

Do you know a secret about your last ex that would embarass them?

; hmm. maybe. idk.

What is one fact about the last person who called you?

; i just met him just now :P

How old were you when you lost your first tooth?

; cant remember

Last time you were on the phone?

; at around 4plus

What's for dinner?

; idk

Ever been to the Statue of Liberty?

; nope
How many e-mail addresses do you have?

; 3

Last time you washed your hair?

; this morning.

Do you like Oreos?

; not really

Can you ice skate?

; nope

Do you have a brother?

; yup

Do you know how to change a diaper?

; no

Do you keep a planner?

; used tp but i somehow stopped :P

What kind of mood are you in?

; tired andsleeeeeeepy

Do you take out the trash?

; no

What's the best part about being single?

; errr the lack of commitment? idk.

Do you watch "The Hills"?

; no

What are you thinking about right now?

; pros and cons of sleeping now

Wearing any bracelets?

; nope.

What are you doing now?

; this? and chatting and listening to music

Who was the last person that helped you stop crying?

; wellll everyone was crying so nobody?

If you could change your name to anything what would it be?

; i wouldnt

Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?

; i dontknowww
Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower?

; picked up the phone in the shower before. heh.

Are you afraid of falling in love?

; sometimes

there's only one thing two do three words four you

2008-10-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

If you opened it , you have to

do it .

Love Survey :

You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY !!

[01] Are you currently in a relationship?

- nope

[02] Have you ever been given a rose ?

- yeahh but from a SENIOR. hahah

[03] What is your

all-time favorite romance movie.

- toss-up between the notebook or titanic

[04 ] How would you like a guy to ask you out?

- serenade! hahah! or some cute way :D i dont mind if its simple like maybe just one rose or sth, im sure i'll find whatevr her does cute. IF i like him too, that is :D

[05] Do you believe that everyone has

a soul mate?

- yes. somehow.

[06] What's your current problem?

- i need to study

[07] Have you ever had your heart

broken?

- duh. who hasnt?

[08] Your thoughts of online or long

distance relationships?

- idk. really.

[09] Have you ever seen a friend as

more than a friend?

- would be lying if i said no

[10] Is the person you're with right now, the person you want to spend your life with?

- skip.

[11] How many kids do you want to

have?

- 2!

[12] What is/are your favorite color?

-pink!

[13] Who are your celebrity crush ?

- joe jonas <3

[14] Do you believe you truly only love once?

- yes, for a lifetime.

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your

husband/wife just died , would you get

re-married?

- no way

[16] At what age did you start noticing

the opposite sex?

- forgot

[17] What song do u want to be played

at your wedding?

- 1234 by the plain white t's! :D

[18 ] Do you like anyone?

- yeah...

desperate, im calling out your name

2008-10-15T00:07:00.002+08:00

FEMALE SURVEY: DON'T CHICKEN OUT GIRLS!

- Does your password have to do with a boy?

nope :D

- What's one thing a guy can do to make you like them?

pay attention to me! just show that you care.

- Are you a girly girl?

i think im rather bipolar

-Small or big purses?

haha. idkkk.

- Do you stay friends with your ex's?

some.

- Did you dress up on Halloween?

- Do you call anybody by their last name?

BASUKI!! :D oh and duh, when referring to soccer players.

- Do you wear makeup?

yeah. but not in sch

- Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?

nope. hahah!

- Have you ever cooked food for a guy?

welll. if you call that cooking.

- Have you ever been called a bad influence?

I hope not.

- Have you ever broken a guy's heart?

uh.. sorry.

- American Eagle or Hollister?

Neither.

- Flats or Heels?

HEELS

- Skirts or jeans?

JEANS

- Socks or leggings?

err not when i go out?

- Heels or sneakers?

HEELS :D

- Straight or curly hair?

i like my wavy hair somehow.. when it DOESNT frizz.

Hoops or dangling earrings?

Dangling.

- Have you ever had your heart broken?

duh

- Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?

hmm. idk. -shrugs- dark? actually depends lahh

- Do you have a best friend?

yupp! make that TWO! :D

- What do you think about the person you like?

one of a kind.

- Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?

lipo? hahah. but i dont anymore la.

- Do you like your life?

im fine with it

- Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?

noooo

- Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?

nope

- Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?

YEAH. haha. dont ask ><

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?

yeah

- Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?

yeah

- Do you ever wish you were famous?

last time. not after seeing how celebrities are treated tho!

IN A BOY:

- Cowboy or gangsta?

YUCK. neither.

- Preppy or Punk/Goth?

Preppy.

- Well educated or Dropout?

Well educated.

- Contacts or Glasses?

i'm fine with whatever. depends, actually.

- Good cook or take you out a lot?

Good cook.

- Funny or Serious?

you gotta be funny or serious at the appropriate times

- Romantic or Daredevil?

romantic

-Cute or Hot?

hot to me. coz yeah. i factor in other things besides looks when it comes to hotness :D

- Long or short hair?

short

Smoker or nonsmoker?

NONSMOKER. most def.

it's a love story, baby just say yes

2008-10-07T18:53:00.002+08:00

1.The way to win your heart?

hmmm. im attracted to charming, unique individuals. with a good grasp of general knowledge! :D

2.What did you do last night?

one word: slack.

3.Do you have the same name as one of

your relatives?

No. :D

4.Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?

not consciously looking. but if it happens, i want it to happen beautiully, NOT haphazardly.

5.One song that's meaningful to you?

keep holding on

6.Do you twirl or scoop your spaghetti?

Twirl

7.Do you drink milk straight from the

carton?

nope

8.How long is your hair?

likee around my shoulder blade there

9.Do you like Batman?

nope

10.Who was the last person who told you

they loved you?

wow. i forgot.

11.Addicted to anything?

computer. and phone. very obvious. hahah!

12.Do you like anyone now?

yeahhh i guess

13.When was the last time you sang out

loud?

in school this morning :D

14.What did you have for breakfast?

honey prata

15.Is your birthday on a holiday?

Nooo

16.Can you cook?

A bit

17.Did you have a nap today?

No.... i want! im tiredddd

18.What was the reason you got in

trouble last time?

I forgot. seriously

19.What do you wear more, jeans or sweats?

Jeans

20.When is your birthday?

18th feb

21.Do you swear a lot?

not very much

22.Where did you get the shirt(s)

you're wearing?

granny

23.Do you have any regrets?

alot???

24.What was your first alcoholic drink?

Never had, never will.

25.What color are your favorite shoes?

not shoes, my heels. theyre like black, with pink, white, and black straps :D

26.Who would you like to see right now?

-shrugs-

27.Are you a social or antisocial

person?

Social. duh! hahah

28.Have the cops ever come by your

house?

nope

29.Ever been in love?

-sings- what is love? coz baby, i dont know.

30.Ever had braces?

yuppp

31.Who was the first person to really

break your heart?

blah... not answering!

32.What do you wear to bed?

shorts/trackpants with a random tee

33.Who was your first best friend and

are you still friends with them?

forgot

34.Who was the last person to

disappoint you?

Myself.

35.Do you trust people?

Yeah, generally

36.Who was the first person you talked

to today?

mummy

37.Who was the first person to text you

today?

vanessa!

38.What was the first thing you did

this morning?

try to get back to sleep. hahah!

2008-10-04T17:37:00.003+08:00

Emotional day.

unite, cedarians unite
we'll persevere all the way
make sure our torch is burning bright
courteous, honest everyday
forever loyal ever true
for cedar our best we'll do

to cedar girls' school we belong
with pride and love let's sing this song
let us unite and together vow
to dedicate our loyalty now

to cedar girls' school we belong
with pride and love let's sing this song
let us unite and together vow
to dedicate our loyalty now

hopeless, head over heels in the moment

2008-09-24T19:18:00.002+08:00

1 . The person who tag you?
Jaslin!

2 . Your relationship with her/him
friend and (very) occasional mugging partner!

3 . Your 5 impression of him /her
smart, determined, coffee-addict, cute, efficient

4 . The most memorable thing he/she has done for you
hmmm. so far we only like mugged together?

5 . The most memorable thing he/she has said to you
idk

6 . If he/she become your lover, you will?
hey jaslin! you straight? im straight too. okay, set.

7 . If he/she become your lover , things he/she has to improve on will be?
errr. idk.

8 . If he/she become your enemy, you will?
omg. thats just so weird. i would hate myself man.

9 . What do you want to tell him/her now?
JASLIN TAN! I MISS YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!! lets hang out after my o's and your a's man! but if you wanna mug before tat, im fine too :D

10 . Your overall impression for him/her?
a very interesting person to be around. we can really talk but we can really mug together too so yeay!

11 . How do you think people around you will feel about you?
i have NO IDEA.

12 . The characters you love of yourself are?
happy, hyper, helpful.. oo all h! next h would be hot, can? (yeah right. HAHAHAH!)

13 . On the contrary , the characters you hate yourself are?
ill-disciplined. obviously.

14 . The most ideal person you want to be is?
someone disciplined and smart? idk.

15 . For people who care for you and like you , say something to them.
chances are, I LOVE AND CARE ABOUT YOU TOO!<333 and thanks for just..being there :D

16 . Pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you?
1. Zoe
2. Faith
3. Maryam
4. Nisa
5. Niro
6. Eliqah
7. Yuqi
8. Gustaf (just to revive your dead blog :D)
9. Jaslin(can repeat right? but she doesnt need to re-do. hahah)
10. Danial
k. cracked my brains to think of who actually have blogs?? and no confirmation that they'll read but AH WELL.

17 . Who is No.6 having relationship with ?
no idea.

18 . Is no . 9 a girl or boy?
Girl!

19 . If No . 7 and No .10 are together , will be a good thing?
really really cant imagine. but both are tall so yeah.

20 . What is no.2 studying about?
exact same subject combi as me.

21 . What was the last you chat with No .3?
last week? omg. feels like forever. I MISS HER.

22 . What kind of music band No . 8 likes?
easy. whatever i dont listen to :P

23 . Does no 1 has siblings ?
elder bro

24 . Will you woo no 3?
she's like, my spouse! (on fb)

25 . How about 7?
dude. im straighttt. im sure she is too!

26 . What is the surname of no 5 ?
ramasamy(:

27 . What is the hobby of no 10?
hanging out and meeting new friends? he hasnt mentioned much beyond that

28 . Does no 5 & 9 get along well?
They don't know each other.

29 . Where is No 2 studying at?
Cedar Girls' Secondary(:

30 . A fact about no 1?
she's XT3! we've been in a trio since 2004(:

31 . Have you try developed feelings for no 8?
INTERESTING QUESTIONNN.

32 . Where does No . 9 lived at?
Sengkang! right? or punggol? i know somewhere there.

33 . What colour does no . 4 like?
pink?purple? i know bright and girly colours

34 . Are no 1 & 5 Best friends?
Nope. They don't know each other.

35 . Does no 1 has pets?
nope.

36 . Is no 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hmmmmm. she does have the attractive height and leg length :P

37 . What is No 10 doing now?
probably mugging for n levels.

are you holding back, like the way i do

2008-09-20T17:23:00.002+08:00

ARE YOU

►Perfect: no, obviously

►Tall: no

►In your pajamas: no

►Left handed: no

=======================================

LAST

►Friend you saw: Iman!

►Talked to on the phone: prisia, i guess

►Person to text you: starshine(:

►Is today better than yesterday?: its alright i guess.

=======================================

FAVORITE:

►Number: 45, for some reason

►Color: PINK

►Food: idk. alot of things. but with raya coming, im dreaming of my ayam masak merah and ketupat

►Place: hmmm.

=======================================

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS:

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?

; sigh and roll around in my bed, wanting to fall back to sleep but it was too noisy

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?

; duh

Q: What's the last movie you watched in theaters?

; 4bia!

Q: Where is the last place you went?

; city hall

Q. Do you smile a lot?

; yeah, actually

Q: Do you wish upon stars?

; no

Q: Are you a friendly person?

; uhhuh!

Q: Where did you sleep last night?

; my room

Q: Why did you sleep there?

; cause i dont sleep anywhere else?

Q: When was the last time you cried?

; forgot

Q: What do you hear right now?

; crush-david archuleta

Q: Does anything hurt you right now?

; yeah

Q: What's your favorite month?

; december

=======================================

EMOTIONS:

► Are missing someone right now?

; kinda

► Are you single?

; yes

► Are your parents stiil married?

; yes

=======================================

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE

GENDER:

►Lips or eyes? : eyes.

►Shorter or taller? : taller. shorter than me would be creepy. im short.

►Romantic or spontaneous? : spontaneously romantic :D

►Sensitive or loud? : sensitive.

►Hook-up or in a relationship? : relationship.

=======================================

HAVE YOU EVER:

►Drank bubbles? : no

►Lost glasses/contacts?: i lost a pair of specs before, then found them.

►Ran away from home?: nope

►Broken someone's heart? : idk. maybe. but i hope not.

===================================

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

►Do you like someone? : sorta

►With? : with what?

►Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? : not really.

►Have you ever cried so much for someone? : yeah

►for who? : not only for one person, you know

►how are you related now? : erm depends who.

another.

1) What will be the best thing to dream about?

idk. i have weird dreams.

2) Why does orange taste sour than apple?

higher content of citric acid than apples have of malic acid i guess.

3) What will you do after your 'O' Levels?

volunteer somewhere, hang out with people, shop for clothes, p6 reunion?

4) What would be the most coolest hang out place that you would want to hang out at?

wth. singapore's boring can? but anywhere's great with the right company :D

5) What if one day, the one you truly love leaves you?

probably be crushed, cry and cry, not eat, blabla. just a guess, but im that sensitive.

6) Name three Power Rangers that has been in your mind all the time.

has been in my mind all the time!?!!!!!

7) Check your inbox. Who sent you the last sweet goodnight message?
what would you consider sweet, then?

8) A black and white striped cardigan or a pink sweater with blue polka-dots?

i would think the cardi looks better.with vertical stripes of course. pink with blue? eww.

9) What are you currently listening to?

check yes juliet- we the kings

10) If an octopus kisses you, will you kiss it back?

0_0 schwaa?

11) What would you want to be when you grow up?

teacher!

12) Would you go overseas without telling your friends or anyone else other than your family members?

maybe

13) What thing can't you wait for?

o's to end

14) Singapore Flyer ride on a Saturday or Friday night?

saturday

15) What if you can't get to the school of your choice after the 'O's?

blame myself, get to the next sch of choice

16) Linking to the previous question, what if your answer won't come true?

blame myself again and go to whatever school i get assigned?

17) To love someone or to be loved by someone?

be loved by someone i love

18) Would you rather have feelings for someone you have known for quite sometime or someone you don't know but you want to know him/her better?

idk. things just happen, ya know.

19) Name your favourite quote from a song.

cant really think now

20) Last but definitely not least, name your favourite someone.

come on, i cant answer that!

another coz im bored

Who is in the house with you?

mummy

Who was the last person to IM you?

err. forgot sia. havent been im-ing much today

Who are you thinking about now?

hmmm. with this song? someone

Who did you last talk to on the phone?

pris

Who was your favorite teacher?

quite a few, actually

Who's birthday is next?

faith

Who was the last person you told you love them?

-shrugs- idkkk

Who do you wish you were with right now?

noone, really. idk.

Who's your favorite relative?

cannot have fav, biased!!!

Where are you schooling?

cedar

Where do you live?

eunos

Where is your phone?

in front of me

Where are your parents?

mummy's home. father, idk.

Where do you sleep?

my room

Where do you shop the most?

idk. alot of places.

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?

school. HAHAH

Where did you last take a car ride to?

forgot

Where in your house are you?

my room

What was the last thing you ate?

ayam penyet. that was last night, mind you.

What was the last thing you drank?

tea

What color pants are you wearing?

blue

What kind of cell phone do you have?

nokia n81

What is the closest item near you that is blue?

my pants.

What is your favorite color?

PINK!

What messaging service do you use?

live messenger

What is your most used away message?

-shrugs-

What is your favorite website?

facebook? heh.

What is your favorite shoe brand?

no preference

What do you wear more; jeans or shorts?

jeans

What is the last movie watched?

on the comp? some kmovie that i forgot the title

What song do you currently hear?

crush-david archuleta

Why are you taking this survey?

bored

Why do you have a xanga?

Why does basically half the world have a myspace?

they do?

Why are your best friends your best friends?

because they roc and theyve been with me thru thick and thin since p6 (p4, for val)

Why is wood brown?

i have no idea

Why do the people on the news repeat the same stuff over & over?

not much other news?

When did everyone become obsessed with Friendster?

since i was in primary sch

When did you start school?

when i was 4 or 5?

When did you meet your good friend?

which one

When did you last go to the mall?

just now

When did you last buy a new pair of pants?

forgot

When did you last burn a candle?

when we had a blackout? haha

When were you last at school?

yesterday

When did you last see your dad?

this morning

When did you last take a shower?

before i went out just now

i've become so numb

2008-09-18T21:16:00.002+08:00

okay so my science got pushed to an A1 making my r4 10 and r5 15.

im irritated with math c5. I MUST KILL IT BY CONQUERING IT. MUAHAHA.

a math... AIYO. must passpasspass!

yes, im insane. but must tryyyy.

currently trying to study hist sbq. pris(ia) is helping me. im helping her with seq. fair deal :D

meeting pris tomorrow.

words of the day

2008-09-09T16:43:00.002+08:00

after getting back my results i would say i need more time AND focus to study.

in case youre interested, its r4 11 r5 16.

so away with my laptop cable! must study study study!!!!!!

sigh. will be back when o's end.

think i've finally found, a better place to start

2008-09-06T15:51:00.002+08:00

so I got a laptop(:

it's not HP or whatever, but heyyy. it works! and the specs are aweeeesomeeee :D

it may be ugly to me but whatever :D I'm installing the necessary stuff now and like yeahhh. wahoo! my own lappy. With like 4gig RAM and 2.something something processor and YEAHHH. basically its fast and efficient and i'm happy.

obviously i'm not using internet explorer so guess what? i downloaded google chrome! :D so like yeah. i'm a happy happy kiddo :D

painting all my dreams the colour of your smile

2008-09-01T15:17:00.002+08:00

wahoo!

im at my cousins house. and well, mio got spoilt. then i just got it fixed today then like 20 mins into using the comp my whole comp blanked out and and and. IT DIED. goshhhhhh. its a conspiracy i tell you!! CONSPIRACYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!

o levels in 45 days. SIGH.

I thought you said forever, over and over

2008-08-13T16:00:00.004+08:00

Malay paper today. It was rather alright, to say the least. I'm getting increasingly comfortable with my use of malay, so I guess that's good. -shrugs-

Took the 966 route home.

I was just happily walking when I saw something that really saddened me. There was this elderly lady, I'm guessing around 80. She was pushing around this HUGE trolley thing laden with cardboard boxes, plastic containers, metal tins and the like. She was struggling under the scorching sun. You can see from her frame that she was frail and weak, not supposed to do jobs like these. But still, I'm sure this is a common sight across many housing estates. How common? Well, I overheard a lady explaining what the woman was doing to her daughter, "She takes the things to sell, if she don't work, she don't sell, she cannot get makan" The casual manner in which she puts things just shows exactly how common this is, doesn't it? -sigh-

Singapore is not a welfare state. Yes, that has been repeated so many times it has stuck in our heads. Does that mean, then, that the elderly now have no place in our society? With maxed out CPF accounts, we're all doomed to scour in the discarded items for recyclables just to get a paltry sum just enough to buy food? Aren't we supposed to be making progress together? It's really heartbreaking to see my homeland in this state, really. We're all so caught up in our own affairs we're blinded to those who are not doing as well as us.

you had me at hello

2008-08-08T23:23:00.003+08:00

marciaaa. thankful she didnt wear a man u jersey =D

the usual stuff went on in school that you would expect during national day

then airport! terminal 3 with iman! got little kids so cuteee

these 2 kept bugging us so we were just entertaining them

=DD

and now pictures taken by the little kid in the red top. he quite pro okay.

part of my pencilcase =D

and me just stoning.

yeah, i had the jacket on the entire time out of school. well, i had it on going to school all the way up to class and from class out of school to the airport and home. how much more unpatriotic can i get? hahah! =D faith supported me with a germany bag. =D

what hurts the most

2008-08-08T19:29:00.003+08:00

i swear that video made me cry more than a WHOLE episode of I'm sorry, I love you. It's just... omg..):

KAY FINE i'm weak. not coz of the video but because im online. I ATTEMPTED studying already okayy. southeast asian history is first? grrrh.

i'm sad. i dunno why):

sememangnya diri ini masih bermimpi

2008-08-04T18:25:00.002+08:00

ahem. at a special request from my ex-FT, i shall spend less time on FB. it IS for my own good. FB's rather evil, i must say, so yeeeeah.

Maybe I'll up it up a notch and like spend less time on the internet in general. pulling the plug after this, i guess.

there are more reasons to pull the plug than merely a request, you know. anyway, i'm super duper contactable through my phone anytime. people who need to contact me have my number so like yeah, whatever.

gone till further notice.

and all the miles that separate

2008-08-02T20:09:00.003+08:00

Today.. was rather fruitful i must say.

got up at like 8? showered, realised there was no food and whipped up an omelette and nuggets for breakfast (what? lack of ingredients. that was the most i could do.) then got ready and blah and left the house at 930. reached bedok library at like 955 and it was already open. wow. and it was SUPER empty so yeay! but by like 1015 it was packed so PHEW! got myself a nice seat. studied till like 2? wanted to stay longer but 1)i was hungry. 2)my phone batt was running low. so yeah.. by that time i re-did my transnational terrorism notes and a chapter of geog. WAHOO! IM DONE WITH SS NOTES! left with one chapter of geog and -counts- 5 chapters of modern world hist and 1 chapter+ for southeast asian history. DOOOOMED.

so got lunch on the way back and ate happily. but boy, was it NOISY. phwoar. i hate weddings. okay wait. i hate void-deck weddings. yeeaaah. i told mummy my wedding's gonna be at some hotel and she told me i'm thinking so high class. riiiiiiiiiiiiiiight. quite common whaat. void deck weddings are just super duper irritating. did i mention there were TWO at my estate today? yeah, KARAOKE. and those people sing HORRIBLY. grrh.

then went out with the family for dinner at kartini at parkway. before that mummy bought me earrings. yeay! =Dquite nice. dinner was great. =D was a long time since i had super delicious indonesian fare.

and otw back i randomly said i want to buy heels. then like, we passed charles and keith and my parents were like eh you want heels right? go choose ah! and one pair TOTALLY CAUGHT MY EYE. my dad looked at it, and said i could get it. and i was damn lucky ah! i got the absolute LAST pair in my size =D

so nice righttt! but mummy said since hari raya's coming in october and i wont have time to go shopping, i'm not allowed to wear them until AFTER raya. oh well. i'm okay with that =D
so from october onwards, i will be TALL! hahahah=D well, taller than usual, anyway.

i'm like, officially happy now =D oh oh oh and LATER we're going down to see auntie remy and her newborn baby girl. YEAY! =D

bang bang shoot shoot

2008-08-01T22:16:00.003+08:00

bang bang shoot shoot the weekends are officially DEAD. Rest in peace, my dear beloveds.

just coz i've been slacking for a few days. okay. more like today? at least i did something yesterday. i think i'm on planet whoo. yeah.

on a totally random note, FINALLY I recognise like 2 names on celeb birthdays on the morning show. i keep wondering where the hell do they pull out the names coz they're usually unfamilliar. sooo Bastian Schweinsteiger turns 24 and Ashley Parker Angel turns 27 today =D

yes, i'm super random.

oh and apparently i'm also an airhead. i happily put my water bottle in my bag WITHOUT checking if it was capped on properly. water spilled and i realised this ON THE BUS coz i felt water dripping. so i took the bottle out and screwed it back on and yeah, okay that's normal. then i got to school and freaked out about my skirt being wet and then took it off (was wearing shorts) and dried the skirt. then like 10 mins later when marcia came in and talked to me, she was like 'eh then your things how?' and i screamed. SUCH.AN.AIRHEAD. and bimbo, if you wanna think of it that way. but omg my transnational terrorism notes are GONE i tell you. think: water soluble ink. -palm to forehead-

oh how my heart aches now

this, my dears was the product of yesterday's work. -sigh-

just getting by on thursday

2008-07-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

sunrise(:

yes, outside my class. well, more to 1S side.

nightfall(:

quick update coz the princess needs her rest. (riiiiiight)

school. stuff i remember includes sleeping in english, getting back my compo (i kept my constant mark, it being, 25/30), stupid archery thing, a math test that got us planning our funerals =D

after school, met rajesh at busstop 966-ed to marine parade library. studied. 135-ed and walked home.

random lame quotes:

marcia: goody two-shoes la you!
me: im wearing two shoes la of course. then what? wear one shoe only ah?

me: eeehh why the bench so warm
rajesh: coz hot people are sitting on it

k enough. BEDDY BYE!

tho honestly, no matter how much i sleep everyday, i still end up exhausted in school. garrrrhhh

it's like i'm walking on broken glass

2008-07-29T21:54:00.003+08:00

Random pictures to start off the post.

Today's sunset that I willed myself not to stick my head outta the window to enjoy. would take half an hour at least and will let out the aircon. yes, lazy to turn it off coz the room was super cool and perfectly study-able.

i LOVE my notes. did this on sunday =D

patriotism at a yearly high.

yesterday's spectacular sunset that took my breath away.

see what i mean? the sky was gorgeous.

nightfall.

It's rather astounding how far worry and determination can get you. Today I actually plugged out my computer JUST so I would study social studies and not be tempted to go online.

Of course, that was only because I had to repay sleep debt incurred throughout these few days and that it was WAY TOO NOISY to study at home anyway thanks to the irritating lift upgrading works. 'BOOM!' -vibrate-

been rushing thru notes for content based coz that's my biggest worry right now. screw a math, there's only so much i can do before prelim, the focus on that would be for o's, not the impending preliminaries. just hope all these notes would help slash my L1R5 =\

i've totally learnt my lesson. tomorrow, i'm staying in school with Iman to study instead. and tonight, i'm gonna sleep early so i won't accumulate sleep debt.

chem lab's funn. yesterday we had re-enactment of cold war and cuban missile crisis and even nazi-soviet pact and stuff. MUAHAHA. i was stalin (-__-) and yvonne was hitler. LOL. and like Niro was the western powers then after signing nazi-soviet pact (initiated by me, DUH after getting 'attacked' by yvonne supprted by niro) we attacked niro! muahahaha.

and the aluminium powder looked like fairy dust. FINDING NEVERLAND! THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS AND FLYYY!!!! okay, crazy. =D

and apparently, my friends think i'm bold enough to go up to a guy and ask his number. eh wait for buffaloes to fly first okay? (pigs overused la eh) anyway, not very interested also. looks and academic intelligence dont count for 100% =D

very random post. ah well. =D

all i can see is you

2008-07-26T16:36:00.002+08:00

GREAT NEWS; I'm officially discharged from Raffles Hospital as an outpatient. alhamdulillah(:

So after that lunch with the dad and went to city hall to get my jacket! (after dad gave me $50.)

nice riiight?

I was contemplating chelsea jersey or german jersey but i realised jerseys will like change so i buy now also i would wanna buy a new one every time it changes so yeahh. and furthermore, got more opportunities to wear a jacket and yeaaaah. i bought a size s but it still looks awkwardly big on me coz the jacket is obviously made for guys and i have quite narrow shoulders so mehhhh. and free water bottle. LOL.

needed one anyway. -shrugs-

and i need to study. reallyreally. i think after this im straightaway heading to the kitchen to do up my hist notes since i have like 10 million topics to memorise and get into my head (HAHAH. nice exaggeration) so OFF i go to cram the myriad of topics.. Guess I should start from impact of WWI since the only thing i remember is failure of LON and treaty of versailles and the only dates i remember is that WWI ended somewhere in 1918 and TOV signed somewhere in 1919? if that's wrong then im dead =D

oooh this is an s.o.s

2008-07-25T23:31:00.002+08:00

Today was super duper depressing. The weather, I mean. I seriously get reeeeaaally down when I see the sky all gloomy with no sun in sight. From morning all the way to right now. Yes, I know there's no sun in sight at night but, there was just an air of melancholy when I was out of the house with my parents.

To illustrate my point, here's a picture taken at around 5pm.

It's usually WAY brighter than this. -sigh-

In school, more groups presented their SEL projects. I have to say, the incest group did a really good job. Stirred up the feelings of the whole class, including Ms Lizah. The Fritzl case really takes the cake, man. OMG. And the Australian father/daughter couple and the German brother/sister couple. Talk about GROSS.

During english, Mr Sng finally realised that we have our target MSGs (basically the average grade of the whole class) on the board for various subjects. He asked where our target for english was and we told him that the teachers wrote down the targets (only to have them rewritten later on) and told him to add on.

This is what he did

OBVIOUSLY impossible. The lowest grade we have is a 1. And yes, my math teacher has so much faith in the class,s he expects an MSG of 1.0.

I have to say, my reaction to the impending prelims is incredulous, to say the least. It's so close, and YET, I can't seem to sit myself down to FOCUS on content-heavy subjects. It's just been logarithms, trig identities, differentiation, (insert other a math topics here) and maybe a dash of chem MCQs and bio past year papers here and there. WAKE UP, SAK!! omg. I feel like whacking myself super hard can? sheesh.

I feel this post is quite unlike my usual posts. I guess its just the depressing weather):

this is a love song for the loveless and the hopeless

2008-07-23T20:06:00.006+08:00

Okayy. After uploading stuff from my phone, I shall just start it off withhh racial harmony day followed by today followed by random other stuff! coz.. welll.. i've been so lazy to blog coz of I'm sorry, I love you. goshh.

sooo racial harmony day! got to school and got the cheongsam from gerrie and changed. felt super duper fat fat fat but yeahhhhh. just wore it ><

took pics. those not-so-fat pics will be up here. the rest will never leave my phone! muahaha.

commentary along with the pics

faith in a BLACK cheongsam! contrasttt =D i know i look short and fat beside her but OHWELL!

only 2 periods for the day! so we just had double bio in the lab!

with niro, outside the lab

75% of 4Z combined science pupils =D we rally are multiracial, huh?

raaaaandom pic with self-timer

another one. internal view now

and 4Z game stall thingy at the flexi-room!

saw nisa outside! took pic DUH!

one of the games.

then after, went to find mar!

wearing a sari, as can be seen

aaand random pic with shaf when i got back to class

just LOOK at that pervert face! sheeesh!

AAAAAND today.

didnt wanna wake uppp. so cold and nice to sleeeeep! but yeah, got up anyway ><

dragged self to busstop and ultimately, to school. it was super cool, okay in the morning! the sky was dark and the HDB blocks had this orangey tinge to it. LIKE WOAHH

couldnt capture the orangey glow. darnit.

here can see abit i guess.

and the wind was superly duperly strong! both our back and front doors slammed loudly okay! damn scary.

and here's a really pointless vid that contains mostly my voice.

random pics from the window today

low-flying aircraft!

roar. i cant capture the prettiness totally

which is why sometimes i wish i had someone with me to share the view

nightfall.

random window pics from other days

lighting on the phone.

i think this looks cool like its setting at sea or sth

think it was raining...

miscellaneous

this is RIGHT outside my house. to make room for the lift upgrading project. how to stay away, you tell me?

o level results coming out already ah! eh magnificent class of 2008, you ready? lol.

super duper hooked on this is a love song for the loveless by the juliana theory.

off to do hist powerpoint i guess. feel lazy but yeahh. MUST do.

you are like a sunset to me

2008-07-20T20:42:00.002+08:00

random pictures. just disconnected my phone and can't be bothered to rre-connect. rest later i guess.

tomorrow's racial harmony day! cheongsam! (: will of course, update pics when i get back.

and darnitt. they're starting on hacking of walls for the lift upgrading process. the wall pictured above is RIGHT OUTSIDE MY HOUSE. good reason to not be home till AFTER 6. blah.

you are like a sunset to me

2008-07-16T21:37:00.001+08:00

i'm so totally hooked on this song. it's so super sweeet! -sigh-

infatuation turning into disease

2008-07-16T19:20:00.005+08:00

my blog died a little i guess.

i shall update on random stuff!

shi yin's specs are so national day-ish. check it outtt

wait for it...

HAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

mass dance was quite okay. but i dont get why the hell they expect us to wear PE TEE just for like 10 mins of dancing. waste water and energy washing the tee okay.

after school mr bean soya ice cream with vanessakoh the bimbo! yeay! okay both of us are bimbo. but we're the BWBs! Bimbos With Brains. YEAY!

today... i opened my window. pushed the gills to the side and......

no, i didnt contemplate suicide. people study so hard wanna die before o's ah? SIAO!

i watched the sunset(:

pictures in order of randomness. im lazy to sort them chronologically.

and my bout of narcissism

and omg i need a 'date' for sunday's study session! ))): 'date' coz its not a date kinda date like we're not dating and it doesnt have to be a guy and yeeeaaaah. val cant come. darnit.

and i'm biting on my tongue

2008-07-13T18:38:00.003+08:00

sooo. study attempt number 698698694563464435. FAIL. hahaha

touched bio. touched history. touched hassan's a math. WAH. HIS A MATH. took me 10 million years to figure out ONE question. in the end i decided to try solve simultaneous in 3 unknowns. and yeah. got the answers like FINALLY.

decided to do SOMETHING to my hair with fifa on the 2nd of august. hahaha. plan until like that. but yeah. most probably i'm going to do something with my fringe. yeah. i'm so NOT touching the hair length in like a million years. okay, maybe not a million. maybe just till it reaches my mid-back or something. and i'm not rebonding throughout the entire length either. i LOVE my curls!

okay. random pics

this is from yeserday, helping hassan with logarithms. you can see clearly which is my handwriting. hahahaha

im seriously fascinated with his handwriting

its like mine... when im nodding off in class. hahaha. okay. shall stop being mean.

so like after hassan and zoe went off, fifa and i went to singpost. she bought foundation. then survey shorts. then went to popular. i realised the need for ample stationery sooo. i went all cheapo and bought in bulk! hahaha. okay. shut.

12 pens for $5. LOL. my main aim is to use the pens purely for revision purposes. my usual pens run out of ink superly duperly fast! downside is this is like 0.5 and i usually use 0.38... but whatever. only for revision. messy also nevermind.. i need to remember to stalk up on uniball signo 0.38 in october. yeah... and my foolscap's recycled (thats what i infer from the cover anyway). yeay!

then after that, ate with fifa. both of us didnt really feel like eating so we shared the teriyaki chicken thing. then walked to tanjong katong complex and surveyed heels. i need like 3 inch heels or something. I'M SHORTTTTT): haha. okay. then bought donuts then went home. yeay.

whoo. im getting slightly tired? sleeping EARLY today. confirm. haha. slept from 4-10. super pro =D

forever was in your eyes

2008-07-11T22:32:00.002+08:00

yesterday was quite uneventful. it's just the routine blah.. gym and archery during pe. yes, gym. which is why i always sweat like crap. haha. yesterday only 5 of us were in the gym. cool. then math remed. yeay discriminant and nature of roots!

pictures;

found this in my phone. i think yvonne took it when she had it. HAHA. omg. UNGLAM.

and pics on the way home!

and from my window

today was... rather good. of course the usual blahs. watched some clips during english to help with our descriptions. during math we had faith's drawing of ms leong on the visualiser. she set it on freeze during recess.

closer

ms leong came in and was like 'who's that?' when we said its her she was like 'really? its me?' and faith gave the original drawing to her. SO CUTE RIGHT. then i found out from gurvin later that she told 4N about it and showed it to them =D

leaders investiture was alright. and i think they should stop using the word elite. seriously.

chem remedial after school! i thought it was gonna be blah. but its like, we came in, mr chia gave us practice paper so we sat and did andhe gave us sweets coz we looked tired. ran through molar calculation questions then he wanted to go through a question on group I metals. i thought he was going to go through on the bored. but he looked at us and said 'hey, since we're here lets test it out' and he actually bought the metals out, cut them and put them in water! cool... okay, we saw the experiment last year with a HUGE potassium chuck but yeahh. its still fun to watch instead of listen, you know.

aaaand went home and crashed till 7. and yeah. the suffering on a week for a month begins now. hahaha. only, its more often thanks to stress. whoopee.

aku tak sehebat itu

2008-07-09T15:37:00.002+08:00

soo this morning it was SCARY. like im walking to the busstop and got scary scary lightning at regular intervals =\

but in the bus, gosh. all i have to say is, i almost suffocated. can people take more pride in how they smell? it's not weird to care about how you smell okay, in some respect its a common courtesy... somehow. okay. enough about that.

CHEM! i was so happy okayyy. i managed to get a pop sound from the hydrogen test! it's like, the reaction was not vigorous so we had to be able to contain the gas and like, many people didnt get the pop sound sooooo when i heard the pop it was DAMN satisfying okay. dont laugh. it was seriously tough okay! coz the metal wasnt very reactive.

then like history test after school! i think i screwed it up. im pissed at myself for not absorbing much. or rather, not studying PROPERLY. i only read through but didnt commit much to memory. i screw myself over with my own laziness. tsk. the test is rather alright in the sense that the questions were rather direct but yeahh. dang. i did manage to remember quite a few points and managed to puke out some parties, founders and dates too. i surprised myself with remembering omar said tjokroaminoto, the leader of sarekat islam founded 1912. wahaha. yeah, thats the positive parts i guess. tho im not getting my hopes up of scoring that high for this one.

quote of the day!
several poeple, after looking at the second essay question: OH SHIT
ms lizah: no shitting in my class, please.

yeay meeting felicia later! dinner and tuition like FINALLY. my a math sucks. grawr.